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1) START/FINISH THIS FICTION WRITERS AND PUBLISHING PROJECT TODAY

2) START/FINISH JOURNALS FOR LIT ON FILM. ALSO WATCH THAT MOVIE I MISSED. THIS IS FOR TOMORROW.

3) FINISH LIT ON FILM PAPER. THIS IS FOR MONDAY NIGHT—>6PM TUESDAY

4) MAKE/BUY A SNACK FOR ADVANCED FICTION. SEE IF ERIN OR DOT WILL LET ME BORROW EGGS TO MAKE BROWNIES. 

5) GO TO WORK AT 6AM TOMORROW. TRY NOT TO PUNCH SOMEONE. THIS WEEK WAS BETTER. BUT I WAS ONLY THERE 3 DAYS. 

6) STOP FANTASY SHOPPING FOR NEW APARTMENT

7) GOOGLE HOW TO CREATE A BUDGET. THAT MIGHT BE A GOOD IDEA.

8) MAKE DINNER AT HOME FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE.

9) STOCK UP ON 7-DAY PASSES CAUSE UPASS IS RUNNING OUT SOON :(

10) OVERDOSE ON VITAMIN C BECAUSE THAT IS THE ONLY WAY THIS COLD WILL GO AWAY. 

11) OH YEAH TYPE UP STUFF FOR TUTORING FOR TUESDAY. 

1) to get homework done

2) someone to read my story and tell me the ending doesn’t suck (or how i can make it not suck) (jeselyn is on this, but it’d be nice to have multiple eyes on it)

3) to email that lit mag with questions for the editors for fiction writers and publishing project

4) to find and watch “housekeeping” for lit on film

5) to write questions for author visiting tomorrow

6) to find a new roommate(s) and/or a place to live for june 1 (i am awesome and nice and polite and will always pay rent/bills on time, i promise) 

7) to find a new job (last night, chris and i decided we’d both be out of the hotel by august, if not sooner).

8) to work on lit on film paper

9) to work on lit on film journals

10) to stop watching glee. 

11) i should also probably call my mother. although i talked to her like 4 times last week. 

homework is taking forever to happen. i’m not sure if it’s because of senioritis or because work is burning me out. or both? i don’t know. but it’s not good. i want to turn in quality writing, and being distracted by work drama is not conducive to creativity. blaaaaah. someone talk to me.

I am rambley. Sorry. 

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so i was still feeling shitty and lame after school tonight. sat through class staring blankly and having a minor internal meltdown about how i’m a shitty writer and just dumb, and where the fuck did i leave my brain, and why am in such a funk, and all i got done in class was some bullshit that i’m kind of embarrassed to have read out loud.

but i got out of class and there was a phone call from jess—she forgot my birthday, and we haven’t talked in awhile anyway—so i called her back and we talked for like an hour, and you know what? it may have been exactly what i needed. lately, it seems my bad moods come from two things: work and homesickness. and yeah, work is playing a big part in this shitty mood swing i’m in, but i also really miss home, and as the holidays get closer, it’s only going to get worse. talking to someone, one of my best friends, actually helps this, and i’m so glad i’ve realized this now. hopefully i remember that for next time i’m down.

i also got and finished butch walker’s autobiography “drinking with strangers” (which also probably played a part in the mood upswing now…such a positive read overall, and it’s been so long since i’ve just sat down and read for fun) and i just wanted to make a shout out and say it was awesome, and that i’m glad he toured with avril in 2004 because i don’t think i would know about his music if he hadn’t, and he’s had more staying power than she did (at least for me). also, i’ve had him on heavy ipod rotation lately, so it was super cool to hear some of the stories behind his songs.

and now it’s off to bed. because i have to work tomorrow and it’s supposed to be a crazy night and i’ll probably be somewhere near killing myself afterwards. hooray.