so i was still feeling shitty and lame after school tonight. sat through class staring blankly and having a minor internal meltdown about how i’m a shitty writer and just dumb, and where the fuck did i leave my brain, and why am in such a funk, and all i got done in class was some bullshit that i’m kind of embarrassed to have read out loud.
but i got out of class and there was a phone call from jess—she forgot my birthday, and we haven’t talked in awhile anyway—so i called her back and we talked for like an hour, and you know what? it may have been exactly what i needed. lately, it seems my bad moods come from two things: work and homesickness. and yeah, work is playing a big part in this shitty mood swing i’m in, but i also really miss home, and as the holidays get closer, it’s only going to get worse. talking to someone, one of my best friends, actually helps this, and i’m so glad i’ve realized this now. hopefully i remember that for next time i’m down.
i also got and finished butch walker’s autobiography “drinking with strangers” (which also probably played a part in the mood upswing now…such a positive read overall, and it’s been so long since i’ve just sat down and read for fun) and i just wanted to make a shout out and say it was awesome, and that i’m glad he toured with avril in 2004 because i don’t think i would know about his music if he hadn’t, and he’s had more staying power than she did (at least for me). also, i’ve had him on heavy ipod rotation lately, so it was super cool to hear some of the stories behind his songs.
and now it’s off to bed. because i have to work tomorrow and it’s supposed to be a crazy night and i’ll probably be somewhere near killing myself afterwards. hooray.