I have words and feelings that are bursting to be let out.
So I’m letting them out. Maybe.
So I’m letting them out. Maybe.
I’m exhausted, then I turn off the lights and I’m all sorts of awake again. I’m sure it doesn’t help that it’s fucking hot in my room and no matter what I do I can’t get comfortable. Next place I get will have AC. Or I’ll at least get a window unit for next summer. These fans are not cutting it.
I don’t think I’ve mentioned lately that I am highly frustrated by my job, but I am still. It’s not even anything that happened today, I’m just having a hard time with the customer service thing. It’s so hard for me to deal with people for 8 hours a day straight. This is why I want to be a writer. It’s one of the most antisocial careers that I can think of. I’m sure when I’m done with this job, I’ll look back on it somewhat fondly, like I do with Elitch’s sometimes, but right now it’s super frustrating.
I made an OkCupid account for some reason a few weeks ago. I was drunk and feeling left out when Dot and Erin were checking out guys and answering questions. I don’t know why I did it, I’m not even looking, I haven’t been looking in ages (…was I ever looking?) (but answering random questions is super fun). Now I’m bored with it and I feel bad telling the guys that I’ve actually responded to (there are 2 of them…both of them just asked interesting initial questions) that I’m not looking for anything because I have a boyfriend on the Internet. Or whatever. This whole paragraph made way more sense in my head.
Uhm….school starts next week. Super excited to pick up my UPass. I might make out with it a little when I get it. Just kidding. But I will be so glad to not be spending my money on freaking 7 day passes (the thought of spending over $80 for the monthly pass at CVS in one shot and only buying one thing makes me feel weird). I think I’ll put that extra $23 a week into savings. Or, you know, paying my parents back for my computer. I still owe them like $300, and I’ve been trying to pay it off since last summer. I gotta get going on that so they don’t start getting interest on their Best Buy credit card for it in a few months.
Speaking of credit cards, I should be receiving one that gets miles on Southwest Airlines in the next few days. I’m super excited because on the first purchase you get 25,000 points, which means I can either go halfsies with both Jeselyn and Spenser to get them to come see me, or get one of them a round trip ticket here and back. Or I could blow them both off and save it to go home a few times. Mom and Dad would like that, since they usually pay for my travel when I go home. Hmmm, decisions, decisions.
I’m in a considerably better mood than I was the last time I blogged. I think I was just having an off night. My natural mood is kind of a happy-leaning meh, so when I get sad for no real reason it kind of freaks me out. Also, I don’t usually get homesick, so that sucked. Talking to my mom definitely helped, and the prospect of school is helping A LOT. Also, I got my schedule for the next few weeks and: 1) I’m working on Monday, which means holiday pay; 2) I’m working 5 days next week since I only have class on Thursday because Monday is Labor day; and 3) the week after, I’m working 4 days which means 1 day all to myself. YAY!
Also, there’s something to be said for listening to music to help you out of a rut/bad mood. Butch Walker and Franz Ferdinand have always been my cures for the blues, and I don’t know why I don’t make that my automatic move when I’m looking for something to cheer me up. I bought “The Spade” on Monday, and have just had Butch on shuffle since. So much love.
Anyway. I think it’s time to try that sleep thing again. Maybe I’ll get lucky and I won’t be on here again till noon or so. Goodnight!